Just woke up from my 8 hours of sleep...haiz...slept at 8 am after chionging 100+ of episodes of bleach anime...cos dunnoe why just can't fall asleep whenever i think of what i will see on 22nd may...the nightmare...in 3 days time...haiz....

Thought today i might be sleeping for like at least 12 hours...but dunnoe why...kind of have some nightmares which i don't really remember...and got shock off my bed...haiz...so dun feel like going back to sleep liao...

Now listening to jay chou songs on my blog...haiz...really those lyrics are what i am feeling now...feng...tui hou...pu gong ying de yue ding...an jing...haiz...emo.....

Dunnoe why...i just know...on 22nd of may...what i might see...but dunnoe why...just couldn't really...haiz...cos after last sem...thought this sem might be better...but somehow...after so many things happening rite before the exam weeks...really...might have drain out a lot of the little number of brain cells of mine...

Maybe...i am just not suitable for this course bah...or maybe i am just too slow for everything...or maybe i should just quit school or change course or something...cos i am too slow le...one sem after one sem...same things happening...always...always...

And this sem is also a very tiring sem...really very tiring...too many things happening at the same time le...tried my best to work them out...but in the end still...bang into wall...haiz...the black clouds over my head will not go away de bah...haiz...i think just leave the black clouds there bah...tired le...

Maybe i should just give up le...xin ah...just give up bah...cannot make it means...cannot le....