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♥☆ Monday, November 22, 2010 ; 11:50 PM ☆♥
❥{why doesn't hard work pay off...

Finally a formal post from me about what happen since i last updated (excluding the post below)...

Had been to depressed that i keep sleeping and sleeping... =( =(

Just woke up from sleeping 3.5 hrs of nap...


I wonder...

How come hard work always doesn't pay off for me...

No matter how hard i try to work...no matter how much i practice...no matter how much i read...and no matter how hard i try to understand...in the end...i always fail at the simplest question...

314...this is the case...311...again the mistakes of not doing well for simple questions happen again...

Feel really useless...feel really dumb...

314 tried my best to forget about it and move on...hoping not to repeat the same mistakes again...and to read my notes more thoroughly...yet i still miss out the simplest questions in the notes that is tested in 311...

Feel really dumb to the max...

Whenever i try standing up from one failure...and try climbing over a obstacles...there will be more depressing and foolish mistakes made...

Feeling really depressing...and really frustrating...

I worked hard...yet...nothing pays off...

Why does every sem get worst...everyone is improving except me...

Why am i not improving eventhough i try my very best...

It is always gone case...

It is always at the bottom of the pit...


I think no matter how hard i work...it will never pay off...

Why... =( =(
Xin ♡




♥☆ Wednesday, November 17, 2010 ; 10:49 PM ☆♥
❥{59 ppl~

ooo...total of 59 ppl on facebook now~ waa


Today is a full day public holiday and went for grocery shopping and small yum yum treat with friend =)


Thanks buddy =)
Xin ♡




♥☆ Monday, November 1, 2010 ; 7:22 PM ☆♥
❥{only one word to describe

Only one word to describe...

TIRED!!!!!!

Tired to the max...exhausted and drained out...tried my very best and slept only at 5.30am last night...but still cannot finish what i am supposed to plan to finish reading...

Haiz...

Now back in my room...come to think of it...its my first time up for this sem since i moved in that i return back to my room so early during the weekdays...

Now finishing up my dinnner (yar dinner! lols first time my dinner so early >.<)...going to try to finish at least one chapter...then will go for a short nap before continuing to finish what i am supposed to finish with one week ago...

Hopefully everything will go well for this week...

SLEEPY!!!!!!! >.<
Xin ♡




♥☆ ; 1:54 AM ☆♥
❥{updating~

Has been a week since i last updated...

Has been a really busy week...

Busy until feel like collapsing...but still have to keep myself awake...

Like few days ago on friday...i think that is kind of my limit already...after i reach my hall at 10.30pm...i collapse on my bed and slept...skipping my dinner until the next day then i woke up...even my roomie was kind of shocked at the extent of how tired i was (cos when i reach back hall after my makeup lecture for biz law, she was like waaa u collapse and didn't move an inch last nite...>.<)

I think the lab and meeting on friday used up my last bits of energy left in me...the lab was really chaotic to the max...feeling everything is so out of hand...and yet in the end managed to finish everything on time...

What happen was like this...

That day reach lab...TA didn't really brief us much on what to do...(or more importantly where to get the reagents)...so end up starting the lab feeling a bit blur...

Next was the TA joined in the "fun" that we have...as in...yar...dun really know how to explain...but just feel that yar lor...TA didn't write on the whiteboard what to do...or what precaution to take...so blur blur do the experiment with my lab partners...

End up...many things were done wrongly (my group)...and were deducted points because we didn't wrap the needles we used into a glove before throwing it into the needle bin...(we didn't hear anything at all on this part...sianz)

Yar...sadden...and next worst thing is we did some parts of our experiment wrongly...finished up the enzyme we need to use for our next part of experiment..and our results came out weird to the max...

And best part? Its like 12.30pm le...and we need to leave lab by 3.30pm...and here we are...results weird...cannot finish the lab...and everyone in the lab have left (except the three of us + TA)

Long story on what really happen in process which causes the whole experiment to go haywire...

So well...

I quickly shift one of my lab partner to do the machine clicking part...so left me and L to redo everything...

Fortunately managed to coordinate very well...really well until we can even do things and put things together at the same time...so we managed to finish everything within 2 hours (OH YEAH FINALLY!)

Oh well...also learned a lot of things from this experiment...

Then later in the afternoon...after lunch...i realised that we forgot to take our apparatus needed for next lab...or rather...me...L and another lab partner Kel left it in the lab...so we went back to get it (yar blur =.="")

Oh well...>.<

Next is the meeing at 7pm...long meeting...really long meeting...and managed to meet up with new ppl also...

Oh...yar...the part of me being blur about a lot of things and not being able to decide on some stuff...

Managed to solve part of it...though still feeling a bit blur on whether what i decide is correct or not...haiz...>.<

Well...before ending this post...was listening to this song while typing my post...a really beautiful song:
Xin ♡