♫ Xin ❤
~Xin Xin World~
  


♥☆ Monday, June 28, 2010 ; 10:24 AM ☆♥
❥{my head is exploding...

AHHHHHH~


My head hurts...


Feel as if many small hammers are hitting on it...this has been on-going since yesterday morning...and today its still aching non-stop...


Yeah...why am i not resting now...well just called my mentor to take leave for today and tmr...as i predict that it might not recover so fast bah...now eating "man tou"...a.k.a bun before taking panadol and then sleep...


Haizz...painful!!!


Last sat and sun is also very brain-tiring for me also...cos trying to solve my IT prob...somehow my precious desktop crashed when i came home to use it after one week later...i guess might be log log who "tortured" it bah...lols...since she has been the one using it for the past few weeks when i'm staying in hall...but managed to solve it after two days of reformating...updating...


Talking about hall...sadden...*heart-aches*...T_T


Oh well...


Anywayz last few weeks when i'm emo-ing or bored...have been watching korean dramasssss also...went to wiki and found quite a few nice and funny korean dramasss...i guess going to post some titles and some nice korean songs in my next posts...


Oh...and great introductions to online mmorpg games that does not need high graphic cards to run them..."Fiesta" and "Windslayer"...both from outspark and are f.o.c...nice game...easy to learn and navigate in the game...and interesting to play when feeling bored or stress...hehe...have been playing them during my weekends while i rest...lolx


Oh rite~ going to finish up my breakfast and going to have a long long long sleep until my dinner...oopsy...lolx


Nights~ and good morning!!! >_<
Xin ♡




♥☆ Thursday, June 24, 2010 ; 11:52 PM ☆♥
❥{yet another day...+ food restriction...

Yet another day passed...


Haiz...


3.5 more weeks to go...


Time really pass slowly during horrible moments...today another drilling session...unfair treatment...haizzz...now i finally got to the point whereby i hated lab...hated working in lab...and hated...XXXXXX...


These two days really super frustrating for me...


Yesterday after drilling session...went to buy milo to drink since i didn't eat any breakfast at all and might be skipping lunch to do my lab thingy...and then...


Went to the venting machine at 5th level of my lab...the vending machine is pretty strange liao since the cup after i press the milo button drop sideway instead of middle...so end up my milo have milo without water =.=""...but the most horrendous part came...after i drink 2 mouth from it...i was wondering how come there is a layer of "milo powder" floating around and not dissolved...so went on to refill water...then while looking at it...the "powder" seems to be in funny shapes...with legs...and i quickly look under brighter light...


AND...


OH MY TIANZ!!!!!!


THE WHOLE MILO ARE FULL OF ANTS!!!!!!!!!!! i quickly pour it into the sink and the bottom have even more ants compared to powder...and my goosebumps grew like billions out lor...i even drink 2 mouthful from it...OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!! Really feel like vomiting on the spot and pull down the machine and crack it apart...yuck!!!!! And i even drink from the vending machine last week...YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!! No wonder last week after i drink the tea feel kinda "energised"...maybe cos consumed extra protein......


EWWWW EWWWW EWWW EWWWWWWWWWWWWW~


Super banning vending machine from "choice of foodie" list...yuck...absolutely BIG CROSSSSS!!!!!!!


Then today is another RAWR day!!!!!! grrrrrrr


Firstly...while i was walking towards the shuttle bus stop...the shuttle bus came and just walk past me!!!!!!! I tot bus C frequency is like 20 mins each time (after i saw the previous bus went off)...how come it came rite after like 3 mins!!!!!!!! HOW COME ONLY TODAY!!!!


Then after which on my way to lab...i nearly tumble and fell down...with my laptop in front of me!!!!!! Luckily managed to to a stunt like move to prevent falling...snap...really CLUMSY ME!!!!!!!


After which during my lab work...while i am going to dry nmr tube in a column to return to my friend...i broke other ppl de nmr tubes which are left unclaimed in the column!!!!! HOW COME ONLY TODAY PPL DIDN'T COME AND CLAIM THEIR NMR TUBES!!!! And worst thing is i broke not only one or two but four nmr tubes...................My first time to break something since the start of summer research...and now broke the most fragile and insufficient de apparatus...super super frustrating!!!!!


And now...my da bao porridge...after i pay like extra $ for eggs...they forgot to add eggs for me...and even add bones to my porridge...GRRRRRRRRRR...what is wrong with my days sia...can't even eat properly and have nice food after my horrible day...


Really super...zzzz...*stomping foot*....


ZZZZ


Haiz...i guess no choice tmr going to get my eggs back!!!!!! GRRRRRR...


Oh well...haizzz...i guess i better take a shower to cool myself down...and then sleep early for another horrendous day...everyday just hoping that time will be faster and can end this nightmare...


But thennnnnnnnn...after shower while going to dress up...the hanger came loose and all my clothes nearly fell off to the puddle of water rite in front!!!!!! Okie i managed to save them...but then my spec dropped out...and nearly broke...GRRRRRRR


ARGHHHHHHHH What is wrong seriously!!!!!! Super feel like @#$!@...(psps...agitated...)


Haiz oh well...i guess i will sleep early...and avoid any incoming weird and dangerous things...going to quickly wash up my laundry...while watching out for any "dangers"...


I seriously need a breather...haven't gone out for the past few months since my last outing to Singapore River...


Wanna go outing~ Going to organise an outing to hortpark with my friends...just now one friend smsed me about the outing dates...so decided to invite some "outside" course friends...


Also welcome everyone to join!!!!


Hortpark Hortpark!!! I want to go play!!!!!! >_<
Xin ♡




♥☆ Tuesday, June 22, 2010 ; 7:05 PM ☆♥
❥{First time in the whole summer...

Have not been updating my blog for the past weeks...


Here are some slight updates~

- Have been slogging my life and sleep for summer research...half regret...half enriched...regret is because why do i dumbly tortured myself when i can take a rest during summer or at least take a more relaxing research...enriched is because i learn a lot about lab work...how is in a real research lab...working everyday for just a report or paper...and the life in lab...

- Getting drilled everyday and really drilled and drilled...and keep pit-pointing things i have never learnt before...super frustrating and irritating...not sparing a thought for me who have never done research lab before and have never learn year 3 modules also...haiz...

- Last weekend also have slight fever because of the weather and also got "frozen" by LWN lib when i was there during saturday...not a lot of people around...and the air-con is blasting cold...no wonder....cos nobody is around to emit "body heat"...lols...

- Everyday just dragging myself to lab...losing motivation to work in lab le...horrendous summer...although learn a lot...but now everyday just hoping for days to pass quickly and to count down so that i can quickly start report...finish report...hand in report...and byeeee...can finally rest...


And today is the first time for the past 1.5 months of summer research...


That i managed to leave early before 6pm...


Thank God...i can still see the sky and daylight when i went to da-bao food at can A...so went to give myself a treat to slurpee and also bought a donut...gosh...now 7/11 also got donut empire de donut le...sweet...no need to take the trouble to go outside if have craving for donuts...ahahaha...


Oh well...going to eat half of my dinner and then go to nap...feeling real exhausted...haiz...


Just pray hard that tmr there will not be any drilling or pin-pointing session...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Thursday, June 10, 2010 ; 1:40 PM ☆♥
❥{feeling really tired with life...

Feeling really tired with life...


Always meeting up with so many obstacles along the way...its like i can never feel real happiness...no matter how hard i try...it will always end up with either unhappiness...or sadness...


Why...should i even exist in the first place...should i even be around in the first place...maybe if i disappear...i will feel like sadness...maybe if i just go far away to somewhere alone...maybe i will not feel anything...


Does anyone notice my existence in the first place...


Or because of my stupidity...and blurness...i am always in the way...


Tried my best to learn...tried my best to understand...but i can never catch up with the rest...


I really dun understand...why...such unhappiness always fall onto me...why do i always meet up with so high level obstacles that i dun seem to be able to climb over...why...why...


God...please tell me why...can u give me a sign...on what i should do...why am i always meeting up with so many unhappiness...why can't i be happy for just once...why...God please help me...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Tuesday, June 8, 2010 ; 1:40 AM ☆♥
❥{goodness...

Gosh...


Some stalker just added me on msn...and i dun even know who the heck that person is...


Tot was my friend from summer research or my workplace or some people i know but forgot who they are...


But no...its stalker...and really...goodness...super...yuck!!!...OH MY TIANZZZ!!!!


Deleted that person...who claim that she/he/dunnoe what gender got my mail from msn??? Goodness gracious...


This is really scary...hope i won't receive anything from that person...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Sunday, June 6, 2010 ; 3:04 AM ☆♥
❥{Log~ Happy Birthday!!!

Today's is my sister's log log's birthday~


LOGGG can u see!!!!!


LOLS!!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! 生日快乐!!!!!!


Dun emo too much ar!! Emo land is full house liao...got a fat piggy on that land liao...u cannot enter le!!!! Lols!!!


Anything can come chat with me also!!!


JiaYou!!!
Xin ♡




♥☆ Thursday, June 3, 2010 ; 8:46 PM ☆♥
❥{stamina = 5%

My stamina now = 5%


Drained everything 95% of my stam within 2 hours after being drilled with nmr theory...really really drilled to the core...


There is only one thing in my mind now...the numerous spectra from nmr...


Ohhhh myyy tianzzz~


But its really wonderful to learn all the things i have not really learn before in depth...or i have not really studied much in...such as reading nmr spectrum...really really thankful to my prof for teaching me...its really very useful especially for my future modules...


Really thankful to him that i can learn so much...didn't know that organic lab have so much to learn about and so much to do also...=X


But really so tired...


Got only one thing in my mind now...finishing up the porridge that i da bao back...and...nap for 3 hours...


Will be updating more about my days~ >_<


Xin ♡




♥☆ Wednesday, June 2, 2010 ; 11:57 AM ☆♥
❥{in the midst of sadness...

In the midst of sadness of having no home...my only room in school...


I am being mentally roasted by nmr spectra...


Now having a short moment of mourning/breaks after being drilled by my prof on nmr for 2 hours...and have only analyzed like 2 nmr data...i have like 3-4 more nmr data to go...


Really getting so tired...


Its like...


Whenever things start to get better (after knowing i didn't fail anything)...more worst things start to roll in...


So lonely...and so exhausted...


Trying my best to do whatever i can...but the hardship never seems to end...and i guess it will never end...


Days seems lonelier and more exhausting with all the worst stuff keep on coming in...never-ending...yet i can't say it out...or at least just have a place for me to pour out all my frustrations...


Tot at least i still have a little room in hall where i can hide there whenever i feel really depressed or tired...to at least take a rest or hide from all the crowds i dun really know...


But now...homeless...where can i go...


I have no idea...


What can i do...


God...please help me...praying hard for a sign...on what i should do...


Need help...badly...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Tuesday, June 1, 2010 ; 11:55 PM ☆♥
❥{feel like crying...

Feel like crying...


Homeless...


What should i do...


This fear...is worst than getting bad grades...


Because...


I have no idea what to do...
Xin ♡