♫ Xin ❤
~Xin Xin World~
  


♥☆ Saturday, September 25, 2010 ; 2:23 AM ☆♥
❥{i really dun understand...

I really dun understand...

What do i always encounter weird people who likes to torment people...

Is it because i have a "come torture me" face? Why do i always attract such people around me...

Really depressed...

Really demoralised...

I can even be tortured by my own roommate...

I can accept any forms of weird habits..

Even if she likes sleeping late, releasing gas loudly, throwing things around....and feeding junk food to the poor cats...and doing all kinds of weird movements...

I tolerated everything...

I just need the door close for peace and quiet and for safety...

Is it so hard?

Wanted to change my far room to my original place...

But with that weird person around...

What am i going to do...

I am so confused that...i keep crying nonstop...

Tried to talk to the office on the changing issue but to no avail...

I really wanted to move back to my original place...or at least the original area...

I tried...really tried...and for days i couldn't eat or sleep well because i dunnoe where i should go...or what i should do...

I prayed hard for some answer...i really hope for peace to come...

But till now...

Nothing is solved...

Tears keep rolling down...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Sunday, September 19, 2010 ; 10:52 PM ☆♥
❥{does ppl always take things for granted..

I wonder does ppl always take things for granted?

Super angry...

Just got into a quarrel with someone on msn just now...long story...

To cut it short...i promised this friend to help him make a poster for his upcoming election...asked for his photos and pictures since thursday but until this afternoon he still haven't send me...

So i called...and he didn't pick up...i sms he didn't reply...

In the end i got really really angry and decide to just forget everything...

At around 10.15pm, he appear on msn, asked me to do the poster now and send him asap...

At the point i really got blow up...i just say "what time is it now...dun i need to rest? Told u today i am having a bad cough and had some family problems and need a good rest"...in the end he answered "i also got my own things to do de leh"...what logic is that...its his own things and he didn't even bother about it and expect me to wait for him...and the worst thing is he didn't even know the dateline is tomorrow and i have to rush him to send me his photo...

I offered to help...i promised to send by end of this week and this is what i got...getting pushed around...and getting angry with something not even my stuff...

Since the way he act so bo chup...seriously haizzz...why do i have to be so worried then...


This afternoon...

Also went to visit my grandmother with my mum...last week she went for a major operation...and today she was discharged and resting at home...

She look more skinny than before...can see the bone on her face...and she still aches and pains a lot (had an operation on her intestine)...

Feel extremely sad...cos she is already 80+ years old and have to go through such painful times...can't eat properly (cos no appetite) and can't move around with the help of her maid...really really sad....

Talked and chit chat with her for quite some times...and after which left with my mum to left grandma have a rest...she looks really really tired...but can't sleep well due to the pain...


On our way home...mama and i kinda talk about old age and how we will somehow fall into having pains and diseases eventhough we might be strong and healthy...very good examples are my grandfather and now my grandma...

This makes me really fear of aging...fear of having sickness...and fear of my loved ones having to age and pain...

All the fears exploded in my heart...feel really really fearful of what might going to happen in many years ahead...


Haiz...

I guess this is the circle of life...like what mama said...cycle of life is unavoidable...but somehow...i wonder...just really a dumb dream of mine...are there any ways to avoid pain...avoid aging...and can be always young and healthy? I guess only vampire can have that ability bah...


Oh well...

Life is so short...but things that we want to accomplish...the road that we want to finish walking...is so long...
Xin ♡




♥☆ Thursday, September 16, 2010 ; 6:38 PM ☆♥
❥{these two weeks~

These two weeks have been really really a eventful week...both happy...exciting...tiring...emoish...and angry~


Okie shall state down one by one...some with dates and some forgotten the dates~


1) First- second week of lecture...everything feel new to me...really new...forgotten all my theories to my studies...and forgotten how maths even looks like...gosh...thats really terrible...

2) 4th Sept- Went out with WL to comex...lols...my first time going to comex...and will be my last also...dun like it at all...its so FULL of humans...looking them it looks as if ants are crawling around...so many!!! And WL say i lure he to a pirate ship...meaning he tot is nice (as i tot it is) and in the end both of us almost got squashed inside the convention centre...super sianz lor...but anyway nice for him to walk me home...acutally drag me to walk home (since i am too lazy to walk and wanna take bus >.<)...

3) On the same day (4th Sept)...WL lend me his iphone 4 to play awhile...pretty cool!!! the "angry bird" game very funny...cute pigs and birds ahahahaha

4) On the first week...or second week? Forgotten...the result for electives are out...and really what the heck...they gave the AHSS i dropped twice...really seriously what the heck...i tot i put it in the last option? Anyway super pissed for that week...and it ruined my "perfect" time table i have planned in mind...so end up i replan again for that week and decide to give up on my entre to take biz PE (as i need to clear it anyway)...

5) And after i decide on taking what biz PE...snap...need to buy books for them...which i think will only use for one sem only...tried and tried to get...at first settle with one guy who is going to sell me...but last min...which makes me really unhappy and angry for two days...he dun wan to sell me and rather let it grow dust because i was not able to meet him on thurs and have to shift to the next week...what a gross and ungentleman guy...grrrr...

6) Anyway i persist in trying to get a 2nd hand one and finally found a lady last week who is selling...and we even become friends in the end...nice

7) 14th Sept- Went to look for hf to ask him qns...and we also went to ichess club...pretty cool...starting to get real addicted to ichess...nice! =)

8) 15th Sept- Went to tradition tkd club to learn yea tkd!!! Super interesting also!!! nice!!! But i keep getting knock on the head by the master...grrr...hmmm...considering should i go back...keep getting hit i think sooner or later i will be getting dumb >.<...after i went to email the a club call cat management network to join their club to help feed kittys!

9) Today- Just came back from cgs de "AGM"...lols...anyway i am now a senior citizen in the club le...together with some of my friends...senior citizen...zzz...feel so old suddenly...lols...and i wanted to join their special project lor...but then dunnoe leh...have to ask Ian again...

10) Finally now i am reading up on my lab manual...zzz...dun understanda single word at all...super zzz =.="" and i can't find any online book that explains all the terms and formulae on the manual...sianzzz...and worst case is tomorrow lab is lab report lor!!! How come every sem my first lab is lab report de!!! Haiz!! Anyway tomorrow lab i also have to ganbatte and reduce on the amount of contact with someone...yar really feel zzz and X100 sianz lor...tot he is on thurs lab and can at least not be on the same lab with him this sem but in the end...still end up same lab and same group somemore...tomorrow i wonder what will happen...SIANZ!!! X100!!!


Finally finished my 2 weeks de long long long post...lols...too busy and messy those few days to update...and end up have to update in one shot...will try to update my frequently if not i will forget everything in 1 week >.<

Might have miss out some stuffs on some days...when recalled will update again on my blog...now going to jiayou to try to understand my manual while working at the same time...


(Hmmm...i just realise these few weeks there are a lot of random and unknown ppl putting up messages on both my chat box and also my email...strange~)
Xin ♡




♥☆ Monday, September 13, 2010 ; 10:53 PM ☆♥
❥{before i start my long long blog...

Before i start my really...really...really long blog post (the whole 1 week plus blog post~)

Below are two really nice video...somehow give me goosebumps (not because of its scary, but because its really really touching...all the pictures in the video...)
Xin ♡




♥☆ Wednesday, September 1, 2010 ; 12:39 AM ☆♥
❥{nothing is going well for me...haizzz...

Have not been updating my blog for about a week...


School has just started for me on Monday...have gone to school for two days...


And everything doesn't seem really smooth for me...


Haizz...


Firstly...i am not able to get the AHSS i need...so my whole time table is now totally screwed up...now praying hard that i will be able to get my AHSS that i appeal for...if not...i can't take entre since it will clash with biz PE i will have to take to replace the AHSS i can't get...


Secondly...got a "warning" email about entre this morning...which makes my day even worst after not being able to get my elective...how am i suppose to add entre when it clashes with biz law that i wanted to take? Am i suppose to give it up and take entre...and end up not being able to complete all my electives on time? And in the first place its kinda ridiculous to have this module in the first place since it doesn't really help us...and the timing it put is so odd that only a few weeks or a few days are used to take the module which i can utilise to complete other electives and modules. Haizzz...how come they dun change it to a week during vacation like 3 semesters back then...can help students by not blocking up the days the can utilise to take their electives and it will also make the office guys easier to plan since its like only during the vacation...WHY!!!! super irritated with how they are ruining my time table every semesters...


Thirdly...is yes...from the above paragraph...it seems like there is a possibility that i might not even graduate on time...and entre might even be...graded??!!?? really feel like biting and chewing...grrrr...just pray really hard and hope that when i took that module it will still be pass/fail...



And forthly...or fourly?... which also irritated me for few days already...i can't find anyone or any friends who took biz law before and have notes and textbooks...wanted to borrow or worst case buy from them...but non took or have it...tried calling a few numbers just now but most sold their books away already...GRRRRRR!!! Now i might even have to buy a brand new book which i think i will only use during the exam...and then dump it aside...can any kind soul lend me their biz law textbooks and notes?


Lastly...i still haven't get a hall!!!!! And i dun think i will even get one...i wasted my energy last yr for nothing...*stomping foot*


Haizzz...i predict there will be worst days to come since i dun have a hall...which means that i have to travel to and fro to pulau island everyday (and a few saturday for my biz law make-up and extra lec)...


And...i can't find anyone whom i can borrow cbc311 textbooks and biz law textbooks...WHY!!!!!!! *sobz*


Now praying real hard that at least i can get my elective...so that i can clear as many modules as possible...if not...haiz...will not be able to graduate...
Xin ♡