Today L called me up in the morning...saying that he is late...and that am i attending the industrial chem de lecture...yar...i am...cos thinking of taking...but i tot he is taking...how come late?

Then he said he went to the wrong lecture theatre (then the anger rose up again...who is the one who keep saying i am direction dummy...sianz)...

But yar...i am still very angry and upset about what happen yesterday (not because of he calling me direction dummy...but its what after that...)...

At first he say he dun wanna come =.="" ...but oh well...i said he should come to listen quickly cos the lecturer didn't go into depth yet...and i have a space on my right side (with my friend beside me on my left)...so if he can't find a seat he can come and sit lor...but weird though is he said he was at 3rd level...but then...it seems like he is so far away cos he took quite long to reach the LT...

Oh well...after many minutes later he arrive and sit on the seat next to me...and yar...i just keep silent and talk to my friend lor...so L asked me how is the lecture (actually i dun even understand what the lecturer is saying...but oh well...>.<)...so i said its just only the starting part of the lecture as the lecturer has not gone into detail...just a few slides of the first chapter...

But then...i think he totally forgot everything about what happen last nite le bah (zzz...he always say he is sensitive and he will change for the better...but got meh?)...so i say...i am still angry...and keep silent and then talk to my friend who is also my senior...

So then L tried to apologise to me (i really wonder whether he even know what he did...he just apologise cos i chop seat for him or wat?)...and poke my elbow...(yar...poke poke...a bit like sister poke brother kind to tease him...but now is the opposite way...)...but i am still angry...and he knows that i always forgive easily when people make those sibling sibling feeling come...alamak...also very hard to explain this kind of feeling...just...yar...like little kid wan something from elder sister kind...haiz...

But well...i just try to forgive...but in the end in the later part of the afternoon...when he called...and after that when he meet me to pass me back my thing...i realise a lot of thing again which makes me even more angrier...i dun think he even know he is doing that bah...cos he always did that to me aka spare tyre...and the "that" got to do with being sensitive to how people feel...and a lot of thing (not anything got to do with relationship thingy...but just in general)...

But this time round i will not wan to experience anything same that happen before...since i am no more labmate le...no more tutorial mate...module mate...or makan mate since he found his new love aka bf (not that bf...is best frenz...lols)...i have no use le mah...so i better run first before he do anything funny again...yar...

In the later part of the afternoon, after after the organic chem lecture, he returned me my thing...out of anger i pop this word "we are not close friends anymore..."...but what his answer really kinda predicted but still upset...he answered..."fine...whatever..."...then i put my stuff into my bag while he hold my laptop for me...then i took my lappy and left without looking back at him...

I dunnoe actually...and it was like...same thing that i posted before in my blog post previously...does he even treat me the same as i treated him...a brother...a close friend...or is he just wanting to find someone to eat with him or go out or just accompany him before he find another more suitable person and he will just kick me away like tyre or wat? Am i thinking too much or is it real...I really dunnoe...but what i see and feel give me this impressions...

But at nite i met HF at mac to have dinner together cos he was around in sch...but in the end very paiseh that i left him to eat alone again as i wonder off thinking about human related things...gosh...really have to change my randomness or else really...big headache...

But yup...kind of chatted with him a while since it is a long time we really have a long chat...ahahaha...but well...then after that we walk back to my hall and he walk back again to his...(we are not in the same hall by the way...lols...he is just walking along with me)...but oh well...

Suddenly remember something...i seem to have forgotten to post quite a number of pictures...(including those i took with that L)...but oh well...will be posting it up as soon as i finish my event tmr...i guess he also forgot about his picture le bah...since he never brought it up again...so...hmmm...>.<

Waaa...long post today sia...got to go sleep early...i think...lols...3 am liao...and tmr i have class at 9.30am...sianz...but haven't finish my event slides, speech and a lot of thing...headache ar...i think i better sleep now or else i will be talking about a lot of weird things during the event...lols...stressed~~