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♥☆ Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ; 9:41 PM ☆♥
❥{my last post unrelated to study...

This will be my last post until the end of exam that is not related to studies...

Another round of disappointment by "erhem"...

Today someone unexpectantly msn me after i finish typing the blog post below...

And...yar...this is the last post that contain "erhem" until the end of exam...

"erhem" msn me...saying how sorry...but of cos...ask me about 213...lols...expected...

And...yar...just saying all sorts of things...and i also said my piece...said everything...all the things i bottom up when i become the black side of jia xin last week...

And...he say that...he lie to me about having something on last week and not mugging with me as promised...

This is the point i suddenly hear my nerve snapped...

Lie...broken promise...hiding...what else have he not done to me...

Is it that difficult to even say that he can't mug cos he cannot finish his revision? Can't he just say? Doesn't he always say that he likes things to be open and dun like ppl to lie to him? Why is he doing this to other ppl...to me...when he himself dun like it?

I guess he only knows how to say...but his actions tell otherwise...

And so...he say he wanna meet up to apologise to me in person and to talk and settle everything...waited for him at sch which he wanted...and bus c left like dunnoe how many le...waited for like half an hour but still didn't appear...

And when he appear...all he does was laugh it off...and not even apologising sincerely...just laughing and joking as if nothing happen...and i dun even know if he is really apologising or just wanna make fun or have fun or whatever...

And in the end...when the shuttle bus C came...not even a single word of saying wanna talk everything and settle everything which he wanted when he msn me...all he does was to dare me to go up bus c and laugh it off...

Fine...i took the bus and left...really at that point my nerve suddenly just "snapped"...and i almost exploded...

Is it that fun? He even smsed me back saying he feel like laughing when he saw me...this makes me feel like...i dunnoe what to say already...

When i am serious he laugh it off...and didn't he say in the first place he wan me to be serious cos i am always in my random mode? So what he say in the past are all randomly say de la...i see...

So in the end...not even settle...not even a word on what really happen...and not even a word on why he wanna lie to me...so this is what his friendship with me are all about...so that he can laugh off at serious matter and make me look like a dumbo...so that he can say any random things whenever he likes...so that he can keep disappointing me by lying to me...and making promises and breaking them

Today without settling anything...without any explanation...i guess thats so him...his sun and smile is out...but he wanna put dark cloud on me...and thunderstorm over my head...

Haiz...

Anywayz...

Today Ian really helped to pull me back alot after what happen...as in...keep pulling me back from the dark black hole that i am dropping into...helping me alot in my maths...trying really hard to help me from giving up on maths...thanks bro...i mean sista...lols...

Shall focus a lot now...not think of anything...not think of what happen...just focus like a machine...focus...focus...

Shall also reduce my facebook usage to 1 hr...and also online but not talking much i guess except for anything related to studies...

Going to chiong...

Really chiong...

Light of hope...

Praying for a miracle...
Xin ♡