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♥☆ Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ; 2:02 PM ☆♥
❥{thunderstorm just sweep through...

Supposedly i should have numb myself and void of all external emotions and feelings not related to studies...

But somehow i broke this...after trying to focus non-stop for the whole night and sleeping only like 3 hours...

Today saw him coming to lecture for food chem...was surprised to see him there...tot he dun exist in my food class anymore...since he hardly appear in sch for lec...

And...when i saw him...he looks as though nothing happen...and seems to have forgotten everything...that point suddenly feel as though a tornado just sweep by and thunderstorm and rocks just fall on me...super super super angry...

And after that tot he might not go for 212 since he also never really attended it...so at least my nerve will not get broken so many times...

And there he is...walking past me while i am asking qns...and looking at me as he speak to his friend...at that point really feel like going up and bash him up...he looks as though like "hee haa nothing happen...i forgotten everything" kind of look...rawr!!!!!!!!

Tot at least he would say something about yesterday...but didn't...so that means he might be in his random mood again yesterday...

But anyway nothing lor...didn't say or express anything about yesterday in person to me and also didn't say why he lie to me in person...NOTHING LOR!!!!!!!!

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yar my mood just became thunderstorm and tornado...haiz...super disaster...broke my focus...sianz...

I think i still have to train myself to become machine...shall meditate in my room at night to become godly level...lols...oops...=X

Now working...super super sleepy cos only slept like 3 hours last nite...cannot complete my maths...feel like my whole energy drained out le...ah~~~~

Straining myself to be awake now...but feel like munching on food leh...ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Food food food food food...stomp stomp stomp...>.<

But the worst part comes...i still dun understand maths and 212...and my 213 and tourism trend...i just dun seem to be able to remember everything or swollow everything up...headache ar~~~~~

Urgently need help with 212 and 213...super headache...dun seem to understand what is taught and the reaction...i am so goner....again...haiz...

Guess going to mug tonite alone in sch...can't find friends who do late mugging and most of my friends are not in hall...

Hmmm...i guess...at least in sch i can focus better without lappy...and will not fall asleep without bed...lols...hopefully won't fall asleep outside late in the night...=X

And i just realise i forgot that i have one more report to do and hand in...oh my tian...and my revision are so much so much behind time...i am so so so so so goner...T_T

Help~~~~~T_T

Drowning~~~~~~T_T
Xin ♡