♫ Xin ❤
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♥☆ Saturday, January 30, 2010 ; 12:41 AM ☆♥
❥{i really can't take it anymore...

Everyone is trying to ask me...


The more they ask...the more i wanna run away...


When erhem asked me on msn again...i really wanna ask a lot of things...i wanna say a lot of things that have been bottled up in me...a lot of things...a lot of confusion...but in the end...i still choose to run away...


Now on msn...everyone is asking me again...


I know they are concerned...


But i feel that...no point saying or spreading...everything swollow up...just try to swollow up...


Now at home...i still choose to run away...


Didn't talk to anyone at home at all...didn't say a single word...whether i have eaten or not...i just say yar...took some porridge and i only ate a few spoon and put away the rest...today buy mr bean i only actually just eat one tang yuan...and left the rest at the sofa area...didn't eat everything...


I guess i am just trying to slowly starve myself...or should i say...i no longer can feel anything anymore...


All i can feel is tears keep appearing now and then...but same thing...i forced them not to come out of my eyes...


I guess i will just make myself appear offline...i still wanna see everyone...but...


I will also keep myself away from everyone...i am not walling myself...i am just...i guess just...swollow everything...


For now...this will temporary be my last post...for now...


As for what will happen from now on...i will just swollow everything...


I will just keep working...complete everything...all the assignments...proposals...projects...because its my duty and job to complete them...


Somehow i just feel alone...


Really really alone...


Should i ask erhem...about some confusions i am having...


Or should i just swollow and try to somehow...think what to do...
Xin ♡