♫ Xin ❤
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♥☆ Friday, January 1, 2010 ; 12:34 AM ☆♥
❥{its a brand new year...but a depressing mood...

Its a brand new year...2009 has pass and 2010 has arrived...


But I'm still in super depressing mood eventhough try to hide it...or try to tell myself that its okie...but somehow its like...very though to hide it though...its a brand new year...but with a depressing mood...brand new year doesn't seem happy for me...its like another year of stress...and also uncertainty...


Last nite slept really early...at around 9.30 pm...then at around 2 am...my mum told me a devastating news...that my grandfather had cancer in his intestine and will be going for operation on monday...its really one devastating news after another...my mood just go from upset to depress and now to undescribable emoness...


Eventhough i hardly see my grandfather (my mum's de father)...but he is really a friendly, kind and always smiling 80+ old man...due to distance it makes it more difficult to visit him...always wanted to visit him this year but keep putting it off due to my school schedule and also my mum is also not free...but now feel really sad that i should visit him earlier...


This saturday will be visiting him and my grandmother also...(my mother's side de...hmmm actually have no idea is there any difference between the naming for my mum's and my father de parents)...my mum was telling me that when she told my grandfather that we will be visiting him this weekend, he keep smiling and laughing...which makes me even sadder...cos i should have visited him earlier...let him laugh even more...this weekend will definitely talk a lot with him...


Life is really unpredictable...eventhough life is like a cycle...but we will never know what will happen today or tomorrow...really have to treasure everyone around us...because we can only live once...


I wonder what i should bring when i visit my grandfather...and what he usually like to eat...


I guess i will go and sleep now...lols...didn't really countdown just now...not really in the mood...(and my sis was screaming and counting down at the living room just now...suddenly scream...shock me off my chair...lols...)...


Haiz...emooo...sleepy~~~
Xin ♡