♫ Xin ❤
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♥☆ Saturday, February 6, 2010 ; 1:40 PM ☆♥
❥{really need to change myself after a whole day of self-relfection

Whole nite was sleeping on the sofa in the living room...yesterday after finishing the hw102a proposal...drag myself to bath and drink some water and end up sitting on the sofa and pom fell asleep...


When i woke up...nobody is at home...hmmm...i guess mama and log log must be outside to cut hair and get grocery le...


So i just sit on the sofa...stoning as usual...and also doing some thinking and reflection...


Like what sistah Ian said when we were on our way home chit-chatting...and what happen about the really small thing but huge quarrel with someone on thursday after a whole day and also after getting provoked during hw102a meeting...got to say i really need to change myself...really...dunnoe why whenever i have lack of sleep...or when i am overly stress up...its either i will lost my temper over very small things...or will just become really kiddish...haiz...really have to change myself...


Yesterday during the lab...the cold war is still going on...really cold until wanna freeze into ice le...after which after the hw102a meeting...was outside the toilet talking to someone...(yar cos its near the lift...lols)...to talk out everything...(but i didn't mention something that he say he will help me with...i guess he forgot also liao...typical)


But when i heard about what that person did to himself...somehow feel really sad...and a bit heartache that he did that to himself for 1 hour...wanted to express my concern...that when i heard him scream last nite...and disappeared...really freak me out and worried me...but scare misunderstanding might arise...so end up...lols...really funny...become "hip-hop" suddenly..."yo-yoing" all the way...instead of expressing my concern about everything that has happened...


I really got to change my hot-temper...and learn to control it...especially when i am provoked or overly stressed...and also to learn how to express myself better and to know how to speak better...


This sentence is from 下一站, 幸福 episode 6...which i am now always reminding myself all the time...and its also something that i wanna tell someone...that i will always be there no matter what happen...and also all my close and precious friends and sistah:


这一路来，不可否认。。。
有时候真的很痛苦， 有的时候也真的很灰心。。。
但是不要绝望。。。千万不要放弃。。。
人的生命。。。不就掌握在我们的手里吗。。。
Xin ♡