♫ Xin ❤
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♥☆ Wednesday, February 10, 2010 ; 12:35 AM ☆♥
❥{weird...

Before i went off to bath...


Erhem msn me...


Tot wanna tell me about lab report thingy...


But in the end told me a lot of strange stuff that he dun even understand in the first place...


Firstly to clarify some stuff...


Many things happen...


Can't even feel any cny mood at home anymore...things just aren't getting better...who doesn't want to eat together...who doesn't want to eat delicious food and chit-chat with family like what is being shown on tv and dramas...


I wan...but do i have? Sometime things are not always good...eventhough i might always be smiling and cheerful...but my cheerfulness and smiles are just to cover all the sadness that are always engulfing me all the time...and just to enable me to move on...to continue on and not stopping or giving up...the cheerfulness and smiles are something to make me forget that the sadness are always still in my heart...no matter how long time passes...


I always like to watch dramas and especially those family kind de...cos sometime when the family spend time together...its like...something i always wanted...but as time pass...as i grew up...i got used to everything...got used to eating randomly...got used to eating alone...and got used to being alone...anywhere or in school...


Throughout my life...there are no such things as celebration for festive seasons...cny...christmas...or anything such as family day...


So its not that i dun wan...i always wanted peace, happiness, laughter and joy...but they just doesn't come to me...


Its not that i dun treasure...its there are no such thing for me to treasure in the first place...


Secondly...


A lot of things happen also within friends


And let me know more about human and their characteristic...


A.W have always been really mean to me up to date...


Now is even meaner...


So i guess that is his real nature if u know him long enough and u let him step a lot of times...


(These are to answer those quite sudden stuff that erhem msn me...and i dun remember telling him anything at all...strange...)
Xin ♡