♫ Xin ❤
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♥☆ Monday, March 15, 2010 ; 1:16 AM ☆♥
❥{super pissed off...

Really really really angry now...until i wanna drip tears due to anger...


Just now was looking around for anyone who can help me buy mahjong paper or whether they know if the sch got bookstore...


Then suddenly got shoot by my club de IRO Y.C...super super super pissed off...


Acting as if he is so pro in everything...hey...if i can choose not to be sick and have fever i will choose...but do i have a choice? And whether or not one have determination doesn't even got to do with fever...cos when having fever...already feel head is exploding and feel like dying le with my backache and headache...who cares whether determination or not...


But all he say is i find excuse not to mann booth...hello...i am even going to skip all my important lectures...do i have a choice to choose not to fall sick?


Oh forgot to mention my flu have gone to worst and my fever have rise up to 38 degree...and my back are breaking apart from pain...fortunately manage to get home to take panadol at 9pm...but i think will be seeing a doc in case it got worst...


And instead of being understanding...i got shoot...at this wrong point of time...really feel pissed and upset...


And somemore i got to know that he is going to be the next V.P...which is like...goodness...if he can't even understand people's feeling and help people...how is he going to manage the whole club...


Forget it...i will still do what i have promised and will climb to nie from home and buy mahjong papers from there...


Got to talk to Ian about this since he is the next P...if he is same as Y.C...then fine...forget it...


I might not even be able to survive after the nightmares...


Now struggling to keep myself living...but if Ian also cannot understand the difficulties i am having with my modules and with everything then really...i think no point continuing liao...


Really wanted to continue...really wanted to continue to join in this club cos its so much fun after the openhouse...really eye-opener for me...and get to know more about some of the club members such as M and C...and starting to understand the club a bit better...its really more than what is on the outer...with so many people coming to our booth to play...even cute little kids...its really interesting...


But if the upsetting thing that happened just now keep happening in the future...i dunnoe whether i can even continue on...its really unfair...and very depressing...


Why everything dun seem to go well after i have just some gain slight happy moments after such a long long time of black days...


Why does black cloud following me closely behind...


(1 hour later~)


Feel slightly less upset le after dripping a few tears...and also a few friends pop a few little messages...which although seems small...but really helps a lot...and one even offered helps since he knows i couldn't go for class tmr...


Just hope that my fever and flu goes away fast...cos tmr still have to go sch to help in the club event and also my work...cos nobody is available to help cover for me T_T...so have to do it...


And the most crucial and important thing now to focus and really focus on are my modules...and maths...have to work four times harder...for my upcoming nightmare midterms starting this week and ongoing...


Praying for intelligence and strength from God (i still believe in God though i am free-think...yup yup)
Xin ♡