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♥☆ Tuesday, March 16, 2010 ; 2:23 AM ☆♥
❥{this is the real world...

This is the real world...


It is how it is...


After the conversation for the past 2 hours since 12+ am...let me realise a lot of things...


That what mama said all the time are really true...although she said it in a rather fierce tone...but i guess she just wants me to remember it well...so that i will not do the same thing again...


Now I just slowly start to understand what she had told me all along...its just that i refuse to understand that this is the truth of real world...how scary it can be...


1 year limit...this is how a person will reveal the true face...after so many times...finally understand that 1 year is the limit...no matter how much i dun wan to believe that...but that is the truth...and the whole truth...


And as one have more power...one will change...or maybe that is the true self...just that it is not being revealed...


And like mama say...i only understand it when i knock onto the "wall"...inflexibility hurts myself...just going straight without thinking twice...


But oh well...better than going straight forever rite...now i feel the pain...my red alert zone is up with my spiky armor suit that i have kept hidden away for a long time shall be up now...


Wearing it again makes me feel heavy...but just have to get used to it...for protection...for lots of things...someday i will get used to it...just like how i got used to it in the past...and always wearing it...


One happy news here...


I got confirmation for my summer research last nite monday!!!!!! weeeeeeeee =) =)


Two horrid news:


My friend KK didn't get in...sad...tot he will be able to get into the same summer research with me...so we can hang out together and makan...sadden...then dunnoe who got in...hopefully its not....hopefully... will be accompanying KK on wednesday and see how everything goes...hopefully we can work in the same summer project and same group >.<


Another bad news is i will have to shift out of hall by 7th May...which means...i have to travel like madness during my summer research since its a everyday thing...oh my tian...travel everyday without rest...and its a 9.30 am to 6 pm thing...waaa...oh my tian...that will be really really scary...


Just hope that i can get a hall during summer...really pray hard and hope for a space in hall...really really hope for one...>.<


Xin ♡