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♥☆ Wednesday, July 28, 2010 ; 10:11 AM ☆♥
❥{in the future...


Just now walking past nanyang audi with a lot of graduating students going for their convo ceremony...super happy and exciting mood...with smiles...photo-taking...and going around look for places to wear their graduating robe...


Stood there for a very short while to look at them...


And start to imagine the day when i will also be like them...graduated...wearing a robe...of cos with the square square hat...lols...has been my dream to be able to graduate with a degree and to be able to wear a graduation robe with the square hat...lols =X...


But then...it starts to makes me wonder...i have fulfilled my dream to enter uni...to get a degree...whats next? I start to wonder a lot...whats my next goal to look onto...


And what would be my future...what would i be doing after i graduated...very high chances i would not continue to study but take short courses...but then...whats next? Whats my next step...what career should i go for since i am not fond of research field after my summer research experience...and i am not the type to do the routine 9-5 kind of job...so what should i work as? Which area should i go for? Should i go for my favourite field that i studied in the past in poly? Would they still hire me since i am no longer studying in that field? Or should i go for lab-based job? Or should i even continue studying?


So many question marks...BIG BIG question marks...start popping all over my head...


I am starting to get kinda lost...


I have some idea in my of what i can try out for after i graduated...but the problem is whether they will hire me...someone who did not really do very well in uni...


This makes me start to regret a bit on my choice of course...should have gone to an area i am more interested and good in...instead of trying out new things i have not even learn before...and start to regret on not changing my course during the first year when i moght have the chance to...


Now really struggling hard...but i think it will still remain the same until i graduate...would people even look at someone without very good honour degree but just an average degree?


Haiz...really a bit regretting on the wrong choice i made...on not going for a course i specialize in and have foundation on...


But i guess i am that kind who likes to do weird and risky thing beyond my capability bah...thats why always end up wounded...


Haiz...so many question marks unsolved...just hope that i can find tje key to some questions...and to be able to somehow find my goals and motivation that i can look to achieve in the future...
Xin ♡