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♥☆ Sunday, September 19, 2010 ; 10:52 PM ☆♥
❥{does ppl always take things for granted..

I wonder does ppl always take things for granted?

Super angry...

Just got into a quarrel with someone on msn just now...long story...

To cut it short...i promised this friend to help him make a poster for his upcoming election...asked for his photos and pictures since thursday but until this afternoon he still haven't send me...

So i called...and he didn't pick up...i sms he didn't reply...

In the end i got really really angry and decide to just forget everything...

At around 10.15pm, he appear on msn, asked me to do the poster now and send him asap...

At the point i really got blow up...i just say "what time is it now...dun i need to rest? Told u today i am having a bad cough and had some family problems and need a good rest"...in the end he answered "i also got my own things to do de leh"...what logic is that...its his own things and he didn't even bother about it and expect me to wait for him...and the worst thing is he didn't even know the dateline is tomorrow and i have to rush him to send me his photo...

I offered to help...i promised to send by end of this week and this is what i got...getting pushed around...and getting angry with something not even my stuff...

Since the way he act so bo chup...seriously haizzz...why do i have to be so worried then...


This afternoon...

Also went to visit my grandmother with my mum...last week she went for a major operation...and today she was discharged and resting at home...

She look more skinny than before...can see the bone on her face...and she still aches and pains a lot (had an operation on her intestine)...

Feel extremely sad...cos she is already 80+ years old and have to go through such painful times...can't eat properly (cos no appetite) and can't move around with the help of her maid...really really sad....

Talked and chit chat with her for quite some times...and after which left with my mum to left grandma have a rest...she looks really really tired...but can't sleep well due to the pain...


On our way home...mama and i kinda talk about old age and how we will somehow fall into having pains and diseases eventhough we might be strong and healthy...very good examples are my grandfather and now my grandma...

This makes me really fear of aging...fear of having sickness...and fear of my loved ones having to age and pain...

All the fears exploded in my heart...feel really really fearful of what might going to happen in many years ahead...


Haiz...

I guess this is the circle of life...like what mama said...cycle of life is unavoidable...but somehow...i wonder...just really a dumb dream of mine...are there any ways to avoid pain...avoid aging...and can be always young and healthy? I guess only vampire can have that ability bah...


Oh well...

Life is so short...but things that we want to accomplish...the road that we want to finish walking...is so long...
Xin ♡